Oh god i'm gross

I am nothing but a big, round, wobbling mound of fat! Why why why can't I control my eating? I did so well after my last post, for 3 weeks I only consumed coffee, slimfast shakes and fruit. I went down a dress size, then BAM my period hit and so did the cravings for pretty much ANYTHING eddible, especially if it was sweet. Now im out of control. I cant even look at myself in the bath, I wash with the lights off or just a little candle light so that I dont have to look. I have no will power, no self control and no self respect. I HATE my body I HATE my job I HATE my life I HATE myself

IM BACK!!!

Hi everyone, i wonder if anyone will read this?? I have been away from this blog for nearly 8 months, the time has gone by so fast and so slow at the same time. Um whats changed in the last 8 months? well I am an auntie to my sisters beautiful baby girl, I have been promoted at work to Senior Carer (after 2 years of them asking me i finally gave in. but apart from that, the only thing that has changed is my weight. I dont know what im up to now as terrified to step on the scales. im wearing size (uk) 14, and they dont feel confortable in even that size. I dont know why I have let myself get into this state, I dont even really care why, all I know is that I need to change my ways, and change my body in a drastic way. I wont be an 8 by xmas, or even a 10 im sure but I will be smaller and I will be more comfortable. Please stay with me through this journey and I will stay with you, together anything is possible xxabbixx

I am a big FAT diagusting mess!!

I hate myself, I hate my life and I don't know how or if I can change it!

I can't stop eating, I can't stop purging, and the more I purge the hadder it seems get. I'm convinced it's gonna give me a heart attack soon!

All my will power has completely gone, if I eat in the morning then I can pretty much right off the rest of the day....and if I startve during the day then I bing and purge in the evening which I hate doing.

Please Please Please Please does anyone have any tips for me? I need drastic help, so fed up with being so fat and crying all the time because of it! please help me i'm begging you all, I don't know how much longer I can stand living this crap life

xabbix

me and my bones is now on facebook

this is a really quick post, for anyone that reads my blog and goes on facebook, I have just set up a me and my bones facebook page. untill I can get my internet set up at home I will be mostly posting on there as can access it using my phone.
I would love for you to requst me (abbifa meandmybones) and would love to catch up with you all soon.

It has JUST been set up so need some work

*abbi*

so so sorry, I miss you guys!!

Hi everyone, i'm really missing talking to you all and reading all your blogs, and I could really do with some motervation from you all.
I've still not got internet at home so struggling to keep up with you all and obviously not been able to update my own.

I am really struggling with my eating and keeping up the self control, one day I can keep to 600 calories and the next i'm stuffing around 2000 down my throat. It's really getting me down and I feel huge. I was 115lbs last time I weighed but that was a week ago and so scared to step back on the scales, despite itching to know what i am now. only just squeezing into the size 8 (uk) jeans I have on now and it sucks.

I know i have neglected you all over the last few months and I can't appologize enough, but please I really need your help to sort myself out and get back on track.....

love you

xabbix