I am a big FAT diagusting mess!!

I hate myself, I hate my life and I don't know how or if I can change it!

I can't stop eating, I can't stop purging, and the more I purge the hadder it seems get. I'm convinced it's gonna give me a heart attack soon!

All my will power has completely gone, if I eat in the morning then I can pretty much right off the rest of the day....and if I startve during the day then I bing and purge in the evening which I hate doing.

Please Please Please Please does anyone have any tips for me? I need drastic help, so fed up with being so fat and crying all the time because of it! please help me i'm begging you all, I don't know how much longer I can stand living this crap life

xabbix

me and my bones is now on facebook

this is a really quick post, for anyone that reads my blog and goes on facebook, I have just set up a me and my bones facebook page. untill I can get my internet set up at home I will be mostly posting on there as can access it using my phone.
I would love for you to requst me (abbifa meandmybones) and would love to catch up with you all soon.

It has JUST been set up so need some work

*abbi*

so so sorry, I miss you guys!!

Hi everyone, i'm really missing talking to you all and reading all your blogs, and I could really do with some motervation from you all.
I've still not got internet at home so struggling to keep up with you all and obviously not been able to update my own.

I am really struggling with my eating and keeping up the self control, one day I can keep to 600 calories and the next i'm stuffing around 2000 down my throat. It's really getting me down and I feel huge. I was 115lbs last time I weighed but that was a week ago and so scared to step back on the scales, despite itching to know what i am now. only just squeezing into the size 8 (uk) jeans I have on now and it sucks.

I know i have neglected you all over the last few months and I can't appologize enough, but please I really need your help to sort myself out and get back on track.....

love you

xabbix